My uncle abused me.
I was 10 years old when it
started.
At 13 he told me I was no longer wanted because I had started to develop.
At 16 I was ready to kill him.
Today, I’m broken.
Today, I only breathe to survive.
My name’s Sergeant Major Ryan Jenkins and today, I’m ready to tell you my story.
“Master would flog me if I did, she won’t be happy when I tell her what happened here.”
“Master?”
“Stella.”
Oh, Master.
I startle awake as I leap off the bed and sprawl on the floor.
“Ry!” Mason yells from the other side of the door. I jump up off the floor and swing the bedroom door open.
“You scared the shit out of me, Mason.” I run my hand over my eyes and face trying to wake up. “What do you want, man?” But I’m met with silence. When I look over at Mase, he’s staring at my body. He’s mouth’s open and his eyes are so wide. He rakes his stare down my body, then back up again. He lifts an eyebrow as he ogles me. I look down and notice I’m completely naked. I fell asleep on my bed with just the towel wrapped around me and he scared me with his bashing that now I’m standing before him totally exposed.
He’s not moving away, and neither am I.
“Mason.” I lower my voice as he looks up at me and just stares.
He can see straight through me, totally bare and open, for him to see all my secrets.
“We need to leave in an hour,” Mase says as he takes a step closer to me.
I can feel his heat, and my body instantly reacts to him.
Don’t be a coward Ryan, just reach out and touch him.
His brown eyes turn from a hard brown into a molten chocolate as we stand a mere step apart from each other.
Our breathing is labored and rapid.
Mason reaches forward and brings his hand up to my chest, but before he touches me, his demeanor changes and he retracts it, dropping it beside his body.
“I can’t,” he whispers as he turns away from me and goes into his bedroom.
My head spins as I close my door and stand completely ashamed in my room.
He doesn’t want me.
Why would he?
I’m broken.Interview
1.Where do you get your inspiration to write from? Inspiration can come to me from anywhere. Sometimes I'll be listening to a song and a line in it can inspire an entire scene. I was sent a picture of two men in a cage in a rather 'enticing' pose, and that inspired me to write Chapter 27 of Yes, Master.
2. Was it difficult for you to write certain scenes (seeing as some of
them deal with rather unconventional and highly emotional topics)? Oh my, yes. The prologue was horrific for me to write. I had to go into a very dark and disturbing place to be able to accurately portray how Ryan, as a 10 year old, would feel. There's another scene further along in the book, where Ryan is sitting in a chair, and that was extremely difficult to write too. But, I think one of the most emotional for me, was when Ryan was at the bridge. I remember reaching for the tissues when I finished that chapter. This entire book, I spent the time surrounded by darkness. Because not only did I write about the merger of two very sensitive subjects, but I also spent countless hours doing research on them too. My mood changed, my drapes were always drawn and I had 2 constant sad songs on replay. It was very draining, but also so rewarding.
3. Do you feel that all the characters in the story got the ending they
deserved? Absolutely, even though when I started the book I did foresee a different ending for the main 3 characters. But I'm extremely pleased with the end result. I think it was rounded off quite nicely. The bonus chapter was just so much fun and it really showed my characters in a great light.
4. What more can we expect from you in the (near) future? Well, I am working on a MC book, but......... let's just say, it's quite 'different'. (I'm yet to release that information though). I'm also writing the last book to my HiT Series. Again, that's going to be so much fun because I have full intention on doing something that I've never seen done in a book before.
Review:
My rating: 4 of 5 stars
★★★★ 3.5 - 4 stars!
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Synopsis:
***** THIS PROLOGUE CONTAINS DISTRESSING CONTENT. IT IS ONLY SUITED FOR READERS OVER 18. *****
ALSO CONTAINS M/M, M/M/F, M/F AND F/F SCENES.
My uncle abused me.
I was 10 years old when it started.
At 13 he told me I was no longer wanted because I had started to develop.
At 16 I was ready to kill him.
Today, I’m broken.
Today, I only breathe to survive.
My name’s Sergeant Major Ryan Jenkins and today, I’m ready to tell you my story.
****STAND ALONE****
I have to admit, going into this story I had no idea what to expect. I was afraid it was going to be an extremely emotional, dark and intense read and I wasn't sure it would be the kind of read I'd enjoy. But having read the story, I can honestly say that even though it was an intense and emotional story, it wasn't all that dark. It was mostly about healing and about finding the strength and the right people to help you overcome the demons from your past and move on to a brighter future. Thanks to the way the author wrote it, the story had a much lighter feel to it than I would have expected considering some of the subject matter and I ended up really enjoying it.
Ryan Jenkins is a thirty-three-year old Sergeant Major who's been abused as a child by his own uncle. His mother enlisting him in the army at the age of sixteen was the best thing that could have happened for him to get away from his abusive uncle. Even though he's tried to built up a normal, decent life he still feels empty inside and he's often still haunted by nightmares from when he was little.
For a while now, Ryan has been having feelings for his live long best friend, the handsome celebrity actor Mason Carter. So, when Mason comes to visit him and introduces him to his new "girlfriend" Stella, those feelings start to rise to the surface once again. Not only that, Ryan also feels an uncontrollable attraction to Stella. There's something about her and the way she commands a room and the people in it from the moment she steps through the door, that makes him want to throw himself at her feet and do whatever she demands. What follows is an emotional journey full of sexual discovery where Ryan learns to deal with his past and let go of the horrible memories that come along with it.
Ryan was such a strong character. He's broken and he's been through some horrific events when he was younger, but he's found it in himself to fight his demons both on his own and with the help from Stella. What made me really adore him was the fact that he was so sweet with his daughter and that he never let his past make him become a bitter person. Most of the scenes were written from his POV but I was glad for the few scenes that were told from Stella's POV because they made me like her even more and made it easier for me to sympathise with her.
All in all, I really did enjoy reading this story. The characters were flawed but fascinating all the same, the storyline was gripping, but hopeful at the same time and the sex scenes were pretty HOT, especially the ones including all three of the main character, and even the bonus scene at the end where there was a fourth person involved.
I can't say much about how the story ends but I will let you know that there is a happy ending for every character involved and I personally couldn't have come up with a better ending to these story.
This is a standalone erotic romance with a focus on BDSM and elements of child abuse, so it might not be for everyone, but if you want to read something different that takes you out of your comfort zone but leaves you with a happy feeling nonetheless, I would highly recommend giving Yes, Master a try!
"You found me when I was lost."
"Together, we'll find your way."
**ARC courtesy of the publisher in exchange for an honest review**
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I don't do 'normal'.
I've found that the more I write, the more I like being different to other authors. I write in first person, and I love to challenge a reader.
I take the normal and switch it around.
For me, I really enjoy getting a reaction from a reader. So if I can evoke an emotion (regardless of if it's the emotion the reader wants) then I figure that I've done my job as an author I want to be.
I really quite revel in taking people out of their comfort zones and pushing them to read something different.
My genre of writing is, well quite frankly, where ever my mind goes. I won't label myself because I don't like sticking to one genre.
My goal with writing is just to take people away from whatever is going on in their lives, even if it's only for a split second.
I'm a go with the flow sort of person and don't really take a course of action to get where I am going. I live in the moment and don't usually worry about tomorrow because whatever life is due to bring me, I'll be happy to accept.
I love my family and friends and will help anyway I can if someone needs it. I really don't like people that are nasty just because they can be, I don't believe that's necessary, I mean life's hard enough as it is!
I hope you enjoy my books, I've had a hoot writing them. There's more to come.....
Til next time.
M xx
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